This past week, I found myself paralyzed by fear. I couldn’t go to work, trapped in the overwhelming belief that I was going to be fired. It all started when a former coworker reported me to HR over something I wrote. And just like that, fear set in—heavy, suffocating, and relentless.
What’s funny is how familiar this feeling is. I’ve spent much of my life running—not only emotionally but physically too, from country to country. I run because I feel shame, I run because of fear, and mostly, I run because I’m misunderstood. I know I can be what some call a "sandpaper person"—someone who rubs others the wrong way. I don’t deny that. My intentions are always good, but my delivery and approach could use refining.
I’ve always strived to be authentic and honest. And while that sounds admirable, sometimes it comes out as abrasive bluntness that no one really wants to hear. People think I’m bossy, that I want things done my way. Honestly, when I was younger, maybe that was true. But now? Now I just want my experience and point of view to be respected. I want to be heard, not misunderstood.
But here’s what I’m beginning to realize: God is involved in everything I do, say, or experience. I’ve spent so much time trying to make the world see me for who I am, but perhaps God has been trying to show Himself through me. Maybe the world doesn’t need to see me—they need to see Him.
I’ve been so focused on my shortcomings and the distress I feel that I’ve overlooked the supernatural things God has been doing in my life. I keep getting caught up in how people perceive me, how they misunderstand me, but God’s purpose is bigger than my fears, bigger than my shame, and bigger than the people who wish evil upon me.
Like Joseph in the Bible, what others mean for harm, God turns into something good. Time and time again, I’ve seen this truth play out in my life. Every setback, every moment of pain, God has used for a greater good that I couldn’t see at the time.
So to those who doubt me, to those institutions or people who try to stifle me—you’re messing with the wrong person. I am a child of the King, and my life is guided by His purpose, not by the opinions or actions of others.
It’s time to stop running. Not from fear, but toward the faith that God is working in all things, even in the moments that feel like defeat.
Monday, September 9, 2024
Monday, August 26, 2024
Breaking the Status Quo: A Personal Reflection on Identity, Stereotypes, and the Fight for Change
This past weekend was a busy one. Between donating, celebrating my nephew’s birthday, and making time to hang out with new friends, I barely had a moment to myself. As I moved from one activity to the next, I realized how crucial it is to carve out time for myself. Lately, it seems that my own company has become the most important, perhaps because it’s in those quiet moments that I can truly reflect on my experiences and the world around me.
One of the reflections that hit me hard this weekend is how tired I am of the status quo that surrounds me. Whether it’s in the workplace or in my social circles, I see too many people who are afraid to stand up and speak out for themselves. This observation made me think more deeply about my own journey and the challenges I’ve faced—and continue to face—as a Honduran woman living in the United States.
My journey to becoming a U.S. citizen wasn’t easy. I only received my green card in 2018, and by 2023, I proudly became a U.S. citizen. However, even with this achievement, I can’t escape the stigma that society has created about me. You see, because I come from Honduras, there are certain expectations—or rather, lack of expectations—placed upon me. People often don’t expect me to speak multiple languages or to be educated. These assumptions are frustrating and exhausting to deal with on a daily basis.
It’s particularly disheartening because, in many ways, I don’t fit the stereotypical image that people might have. My skin is white, which leads me to wonder: if I were dark-skinned, would the prejudice I face be even worse? In the U.S., prejudice isn’t a one-way street. It works in multiple directions, with minorities often pitted against whites and, even more tragically, minorities pitted against each other.
What’s even more troubling is how deeply ingrained these stereotypes are. The rhetoric that Americans and Europeans have historically created about developing countries—rhetoric used to justify conquest, colonization, and destruction—still permeates our society today. It’s so deeply embedded that many people don’t even realize when they are acting upon these biases.
But here’s the thing: I refuse to let this status quo continue unchallenged. I refuse to be silent in the face of ignorance and prejudice. I believe it’s time for all of us—regardless of our backgrounds—to stand up, speak out, and challenge the stereotypes that hold us back. We need to create a world where people are seen for who they truly are, not where they come from or what they look like.
This is my commitment: to fight against the stereotypes and biases that still exist in our society, and to help create a world where everyone is valued for their unique contributions. It won’t be easy, but change never is. And as I continue on this journey, I hope to inspire others to do the same.
One of the reflections that hit me hard this weekend is how tired I am of the status quo that surrounds me. Whether it’s in the workplace or in my social circles, I see too many people who are afraid to stand up and speak out for themselves. This observation made me think more deeply about my own journey and the challenges I’ve faced—and continue to face—as a Honduran woman living in the United States.
My journey to becoming a U.S. citizen wasn’t easy. I only received my green card in 2018, and by 2023, I proudly became a U.S. citizen. However, even with this achievement, I can’t escape the stigma that society has created about me. You see, because I come from Honduras, there are certain expectations—or rather, lack of expectations—placed upon me. People often don’t expect me to speak multiple languages or to be educated. These assumptions are frustrating and exhausting to deal with on a daily basis.
It’s particularly disheartening because, in many ways, I don’t fit the stereotypical image that people might have. My skin is white, which leads me to wonder: if I were dark-skinned, would the prejudice I face be even worse? In the U.S., prejudice isn’t a one-way street. It works in multiple directions, with minorities often pitted against whites and, even more tragically, minorities pitted against each other.
What’s even more troubling is how deeply ingrained these stereotypes are. The rhetoric that Americans and Europeans have historically created about developing countries—rhetoric used to justify conquest, colonization, and destruction—still permeates our society today. It’s so deeply embedded that many people don’t even realize when they are acting upon these biases.
But here’s the thing: I refuse to let this status quo continue unchallenged. I refuse to be silent in the face of ignorance and prejudice. I believe it’s time for all of us—regardless of our backgrounds—to stand up, speak out, and challenge the stereotypes that hold us back. We need to create a world where people are seen for who they truly are, not where they come from or what they look like.
This is my commitment: to fight against the stereotypes and biases that still exist in our society, and to help create a world where everyone is valued for their unique contributions. It won’t be easy, but change never is. And as I continue on this journey, I hope to inspire others to do the same.
Thursday, August 22, 2024
Finding Grace in the Midst of Life’s Challenges
Some days, life seems to show signs of improvement—moments when the weight lifts just a little, and you can finally catch your breath. But then, without warning, you’re reminded of how fragile life truly is. This week has been one of those times for me, a stark reminder of the difficulties that come with having a sick parent far away, especially when you have no close family nearby to lean on.
The struggle is real, and it cuts deep. My heart aches for the power and resources to bring my dad to the United States, to provide him with the care he needs and deserves. I wish I were in a position to do more for my parents, to offer them the security and comfort they have given me throughout my life. Yet, the reality is that I am not there—at least not yet.
This journey has left me feeling misunderstood. For so long, I’ve tried to explain myself, to make others see my heart and my intentions, but the effort often feels futile. At work, I get reprimanded for being too proactive, while at home, I’m told I’m not prudent enough. It’s a constant struggle to be "good enough," and it’s left me wondering if I ever will be.
The truth is, I may never be good enough for everyone, but I know I am good enough for God. That’s a truth I hold onto when the world feels overwhelming. Yet, there’s a part of me that wishes I could blend in more. All my life, I’ve stood out—sometimes for good reasons, other times for reasons I’d rather forget. Now, I find myself just wanting to be invisible, to move through life unnoticed, free from the constant scrutiny and judgment.
But here’s the thing: blending in isn’t my path. I’m learning that it’s okay to stand out, to be different, even if it feels lonely or exhausting. My hope is that God will work in all our hearts, helping us to recognize the immense grace we’ve been given and to extend that grace to others. We all need it, perhaps more than we realize.
Life’s challenges can make us feel isolated, like we’re carrying burdens that no one else can see or understand. But in those moments, I try to remember that I’m never truly alone. God sees me, knows me, and loves me just as I am. My worth isn’t defined by others’ expectations or judgments, but by the grace and love that God offers so freely.
So, if you’re feeling like I am—tired, misunderstood, and yearning for something more—know that it’s okay. It’s okay to rest, to lean on your faith, and to give yourself permission to be human.
You don’t have to carry everything on your own. You are enough, just as you are, and even in the moments when you feel invisible, you are seen and loved by the One who matters most.
Monday, August 12, 2024
Bridging the Distance: Overcoming Ego and Pride in Relationships
Relationships are never easy, especially when distance—whether physical, emotional, or both—stands between two people who care deeply about each other. Sometimes, the hardest battles we face are with ourselves, as our ego and pride step in, creating walls that hinder connection and understanding.
The Struggle with Distance
How do you show someone what you truly feel when they're far away? How can you express your emotions when it feels like your words aren’t being understood? These questions often leave us feeling frustrated, isolated, and helpless. Distance can amplify misunderstandings and create a sense of detachment, making it even harder to communicate effectively.
But what if the real challenge isn’t just the miles between us, but the walls we’ve built within ourselves?
Ego and Pride: The Invisible Barriers
Ego and pride often act as our shields, protecting us from vulnerability and the fear of rejection. However, in relationships, these shields can become barriers that prevent us from truly connecting with our partners. When we let ego dictate our actions, we might find ourselves saying things we don’t mean, withholding affection, or refusing to admit when we’re wrong. Pride, on the other hand, can stop us from reaching out, apologizing, or showing that we care.
The result? A growing distance that has nothing to do with geography and everything to do with our inability to let go of these protective yet destructive emotions.
Bridging the Gap
So, how do we bridge this gap? How do we show our partners what we truly feel, even when it feels like there’s an ocean between us?
Embrace Vulnerability: Allow yourself to be vulnerable. Share your fears, your hopes, and your love without holding back. Vulnerability is not a weakness; it’s a powerful way to show that you care.
Communicate Openly: Honest communication is key. Talk about your feelings, your needs, and your concerns without letting pride interfere. Listen with the intent to understand, not just to respond.
Make Small Gestures Count: Sometimes, it’s the little things that matter most. A heartfelt message, a letter, or even a simple “I miss you” can go a long way in showing that you’re thinking about them.
Focus on Solutions, Not Problems: Instead of dwelling on what’s gone wrong, focus on finding ways to move forward. Address the issues that are creating distance, but do so with the intent of finding solutions, not assigning blame.
Be Patient: Healing and understanding take time. Be patient with yourself and your partner as you work through the challenges. Remember that every step forward, no matter how small, is progress.
Letting Love Lead
In the end, love is stronger than ego or pride. It’s what brings us together, despite the challenges we face. By letting go of these barriers and embracing open communication, vulnerability, and patience, we can bridge the distance and find our way back to each other.
Remember, it’s not about winning or losing—it’s about finding a way to be together, to understand each other, and to build a relationship that’s rooted in love and mutual respect.
The Struggle with Distance
How do you show someone what you truly feel when they're far away? How can you express your emotions when it feels like your words aren’t being understood? These questions often leave us feeling frustrated, isolated, and helpless. Distance can amplify misunderstandings and create a sense of detachment, making it even harder to communicate effectively.
But what if the real challenge isn’t just the miles between us, but the walls we’ve built within ourselves?
Ego and Pride: The Invisible Barriers
Ego and pride often act as our shields, protecting us from vulnerability and the fear of rejection. However, in relationships, these shields can become barriers that prevent us from truly connecting with our partners. When we let ego dictate our actions, we might find ourselves saying things we don’t mean, withholding affection, or refusing to admit when we’re wrong. Pride, on the other hand, can stop us from reaching out, apologizing, or showing that we care.
The result? A growing distance that has nothing to do with geography and everything to do with our inability to let go of these protective yet destructive emotions.
Bridging the Gap
So, how do we bridge this gap? How do we show our partners what we truly feel, even when it feels like there’s an ocean between us?
Embrace Vulnerability: Allow yourself to be vulnerable. Share your fears, your hopes, and your love without holding back. Vulnerability is not a weakness; it’s a powerful way to show that you care.
Communicate Openly: Honest communication is key. Talk about your feelings, your needs, and your concerns without letting pride interfere. Listen with the intent to understand, not just to respond.
Make Small Gestures Count: Sometimes, it’s the little things that matter most. A heartfelt message, a letter, or even a simple “I miss you” can go a long way in showing that you’re thinking about them.
Focus on Solutions, Not Problems: Instead of dwelling on what’s gone wrong, focus on finding ways to move forward. Address the issues that are creating distance, but do so with the intent of finding solutions, not assigning blame.
Be Patient: Healing and understanding take time. Be patient with yourself and your partner as you work through the challenges. Remember that every step forward, no matter how small, is progress.
Letting Love Lead
In the end, love is stronger than ego or pride. It’s what brings us together, despite the challenges we face. By letting go of these barriers and embracing open communication, vulnerability, and patience, we can bridge the distance and find our way back to each other.
Remember, it’s not about winning or losing—it’s about finding a way to be together, to understand each other, and to build a relationship that’s rooted in love and mutual respect.
Friday, August 9, 2024
Embracing Growth: A Season of Clarity and Renewal
As I was driving to work today, I found myself marveling at how Chicago has prioritized trees and the environment. We're at that beautiful transition where summer is gently giving way to fall, and soon, the city will be painted with the vibrant hues of the season. It's a time of reflection and change, and lately, I've been thinking a lot about the journey I've been on.
This past month, I've felt like I was drowning in murky waters, unable to find stillness. It’s as though the more I tried to push through, the more overwhelmed I became. This season has left me feeling both isolated and exposed—pouring out my soul only to watch everything crumble around me. But from that, I’ve learned an important lesson: sometimes, we need to let go and allow clarity to emerge on its own.
I'm happy to share that I've decided to stay in my current role. It wasn’t an easy decision, especially with the emotional turbulence I’ve been experiencing. But I've worked too hard to get to where I am, and I refuse to let fleeting emotions dictate my path. I’ve grown so much over the last seven years—completing my undergrad, becoming a researcher, and now, preparing to start my master’s degree. Soon, I’ll also be embarking on my own project, something I’ve dreamed about for a long time.
I realize now that I’ve been so laser-focused on the changes happening around me that I lost sight of the bigger picture. But clarity is finally setting in, and my vision is expanding once again. I’m excited for what’s ahead because I know that with preparation and discipline, I’ll be ready for whatever comes my way.
When it comes to my personal life, particularly dating, I’m recognizing that I still have some healing to do. I had hoped that the man I want to marry would come back and that things could be worked out. But I’m learning to surrender this hope to God, trusting that His plan requires my obedience and faith. This realization has allowed me to catch my breath and refocus on growing in my professional role.
This season of transition is bringing with it a renewed sense of purpose and direction. I’m excited for the future, knowing that with the right mindset and determination, I can achieve great things. Here's to embracing growth, clarity, and the beautiful journey ahead.
This past month, I've felt like I was drowning in murky waters, unable to find stillness. It’s as though the more I tried to push through, the more overwhelmed I became. This season has left me feeling both isolated and exposed—pouring out my soul only to watch everything crumble around me. But from that, I’ve learned an important lesson: sometimes, we need to let go and allow clarity to emerge on its own.
I'm happy to share that I've decided to stay in my current role. It wasn’t an easy decision, especially with the emotional turbulence I’ve been experiencing. But I've worked too hard to get to where I am, and I refuse to let fleeting emotions dictate my path. I’ve grown so much over the last seven years—completing my undergrad, becoming a researcher, and now, preparing to start my master’s degree. Soon, I’ll also be embarking on my own project, something I’ve dreamed about for a long time.
I realize now that I’ve been so laser-focused on the changes happening around me that I lost sight of the bigger picture. But clarity is finally setting in, and my vision is expanding once again. I’m excited for what’s ahead because I know that with preparation and discipline, I’ll be ready for whatever comes my way.
When it comes to my personal life, particularly dating, I’m recognizing that I still have some healing to do. I had hoped that the man I want to marry would come back and that things could be worked out. But I’m learning to surrender this hope to God, trusting that His plan requires my obedience and faith. This realization has allowed me to catch my breath and refocus on growing in my professional role.
This season of transition is bringing with it a renewed sense of purpose and direction. I’m excited for the future, knowing that with the right mindset and determination, I can achieve great things. Here's to embracing growth, clarity, and the beautiful journey ahead.
Monday, July 22, 2024
Embracing Accountability: Navigating Life's Challenges with Resilience
Life lately has been kicking my butt. Between learning how to let go and making decisions that will impact my livelihood in the years to come, it’s been a whirlwind. Every day brings new challenges and opportunities, and it's not always easy to navigate. Letting go is one of the hardest things to do. Whether it's letting go of past mistakes, old habits, or even relationships that no longer serve us, the process can be incredibly challenging. But it's also necessary for growth. Letting go allows us to make room for new experiences and opportunities that align with our goals and aspirations.
I've been grappling with some big decisions lately, decisions that will shape my future in significant ways. From choosing whether to stay at my current role or start a business to considering diving back into the dating world, each choice feels monumental. It's a lot to juggle, and the weight of these decisions can be overwhelming. One of the most transformative aspects of this journey has been taking full accountability for my choices. It's a weird but empowering feeling to own every decision I make, knowing that each one contributes to the path I'm creating for myself. Accountability means recognizing that while we can't control everything that happens to us, we can control how we respond and the choices we make moving forward.
No matter how tough it gets, I’m committed to making every day count and facing each challenge with resilience and grace. Resilience is about bouncing back from setbacks, learning from failures, and continuing to push forward despite the obstacles. It's about maintaining hope and determination even when things seem impossible. Change is inevitable, and it can be both exciting and terrifying. Trusting the journey means embracing the uncertainty and believing that everything happens for a reason. It's about having faith in the process and in our ability to handle whatever comes our way.
Here's to the ups and downs, the lessons learned, and the strength we find within ourselves. Life's challenges may knock us down, but it's our resilience and determination that help us get back up and keep moving forward. As I navigate these changes and decisions, I’m reminded that brighter days are ahead, and every step I take brings me closer to my goals. To anyone else going through similar challenges, remember this: You are stronger than you think. Embrace the changes, trust the journey, and take accountability for your choices. Your strength and resilience will guide you through, and the future holds endless possibilities.
Keep moving forward and know that you’re not alone in this journey. Together, we can face anything life throws our way. 🌟 If you’re feeling overwhelmed or just need a reminder of your strength, feel free to share your thoughts and experiences. Let's support each other in this journey of growth and self-discovery.
I've been grappling with some big decisions lately, decisions that will shape my future in significant ways. From choosing whether to stay at my current role or start a business to considering diving back into the dating world, each choice feels monumental. It's a lot to juggle, and the weight of these decisions can be overwhelming. One of the most transformative aspects of this journey has been taking full accountability for my choices. It's a weird but empowering feeling to own every decision I make, knowing that each one contributes to the path I'm creating for myself. Accountability means recognizing that while we can't control everything that happens to us, we can control how we respond and the choices we make moving forward.
No matter how tough it gets, I’m committed to making every day count and facing each challenge with resilience and grace. Resilience is about bouncing back from setbacks, learning from failures, and continuing to push forward despite the obstacles. It's about maintaining hope and determination even when things seem impossible. Change is inevitable, and it can be both exciting and terrifying. Trusting the journey means embracing the uncertainty and believing that everything happens for a reason. It's about having faith in the process and in our ability to handle whatever comes our way.
Here's to the ups and downs, the lessons learned, and the strength we find within ourselves. Life's challenges may knock us down, but it's our resilience and determination that help us get back up and keep moving forward. As I navigate these changes and decisions, I’m reminded that brighter days are ahead, and every step I take brings me closer to my goals. To anyone else going through similar challenges, remember this: You are stronger than you think. Embrace the changes, trust the journey, and take accountability for your choices. Your strength and resilience will guide you through, and the future holds endless possibilities.
Keep moving forward and know that you’re not alone in this journey. Together, we can face anything life throws our way. 🌟 If you’re feeling overwhelmed or just need a reminder of your strength, feel free to share your thoughts and experiences. Let's support each other in this journey of growth and self-discovery.
Monday, July 1, 2024
Embracing Change: Finding Strength in Adversity
Life has a way of throwing curveballs when we least expect it. These past few weeks have been especially challenging for me, filled with what feels like an abundance of negative energy. Yet, as the artist Fat Nwigwe says, "I leave a demon holier than nuns and then pray!" This powerful reminder resonates deeply with me. It acknowledges the battles we face but also the divine strength within us that allows us to overcome them.
Being anointed comes with its own set of trials. The attacks are real, and the journey is far from easy. But the strength of my creator has already secured the victory. All I need to do is trust and keep moving forward.
Trusting the Journey
I may not know what the next six months hold, but I am committed to making every day count. Change is something we all experience, whether we like it or not. It's the only constant in life. Embracing this truth can be empowering. It allows us to focus on the present moment and make the most of every opportunity.
Resilience in the Face of Adversity
Despite the challenges, I continue to amaze myself with my resilience. No matter what happens, I always walk out with my head held high. This inner strength is something we all possess. It's what allows us to rise above our circumstances and continue forward with hope and determination.
Making Every Day Count
Every day is a new opportunity to grow, to learn, and to move closer to our goals. Even when times are tough, we have the power to make a positive impact on our own lives and the lives of others. By focusing on what we can control and letting go of what we cannot, we create space for new possibilities and growth.
Embracing Change
Change is inevitable, and it's not always easy. But it's through change that we find our true strength and discover new paths. Embracing change means being open to new experiences and trusting that, no matter how difficult things may seem, there is a greater plan at work.
As I move forward, I am reminded that I am not alone in this journey. The strength of my creator, the support of loved ones, and my own resilience will carry me through. No matter what the future holds, I am committed to facing it with courage, hope, and an unwavering belief in my ability to overcome.
To anyone else going through tough times, remember this: You are stronger than you think. Embrace the changes, trust the journey, and keep moving forward with your head held high. Your strength and resilience will guide you through, and brighter days are ahead.
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